i have reached the level of ultimate bummer when a video like this can captivate me for a full 5 minutes :p



but todemo kawaii desune!

best dance of the season so far. without a doubt.

the story behind the dance is ironic. snorts.

i'm sorry i pangseh so many times ): i hate being sick.

hmms. all timesonline.co.uk reported about the jakarta bombings, is that it caused man utd to cancel their trip to jakarta. bloody hell?

HOW CAN THEY CUT OUT YOUNG SIRIUS BLACK AND REMUS LUPIN FROM THE NEW HP FILM!? HOW CAN?! god its the worst film EVER :p ROARS. very very angry.

mmms. i must say emmy the great is pretty good. i'm usually not such a big fan of female singers, just because they can be annoyingly sweet and whiny sometimes. but i quite like her songs.

another mini epiphany yesterday. i realise that the reason for my preferences is due to a conflicting urge to either seek out the broken child, or the one to heal the broken child. thought about it the whole night yesterday, and though i now understand the underlying reasons behind the preferences. i haven't figured out which one i am, or which one i really want for the rest of my life. and previously i've gone with the first, but now that i know what i know, or have found my clarity, do i still want the first, or am i capable of handling the second. shrugs. need to think this out.

and then.. which one would you fall under. i actually think you are neither. which again makes me question if my classification is wrong, or my choice in you is wrong.

i haven't been blogging much lately :p been sleeping too much. and watching my boys over flowers and thinking of taking up pottery. snorts. or maybe finding myself a potter. HAHA.

cass leaving this sat ): i sad. i'll miss you friend.

JERRINE, MEL & CAT! COME HOMEEEEEEE ):

mms. i think well-tailored berms (preferably in a form of print), a white or light coloured dress shirt rolled up at the sleeves, a light, well-tailored jacket, also rolled up at the sleeves, and a pair of dressy loafers makes for the sexiest outfit for a guy in summer.

never did have this connection to kayla. always thought she was a good dancer, but just didn't hit there emotionally. but this. omg. this is so bloody good. mia michaels is a bloody genius really. genius.



bloody brilliant.

mmms. hello friends. i'm sorry i'm so busy these few days, but these few days shall be my precious screw time (that sounds horrid. snorts) but yes.

too many thoughts surrounding death these few days. of how i want my life to be before i die. or even what i want to do before i die. haha. i think in these two years i've ticked off many things on that list of things to do before you die, just that the number of things that i want to do and try before i have die have grown exponentially. haha. so it seems like i'm chasing this line that keeps growing further and further away. but i'm happy chasing it.

and at the same time i don't fear that finishing line. i don't want to die anytime soon, but at the same time.. i don't fear death should it come tmr. like i always say, if meant to be, it will be. haha. its a kind of carefreeness and recklessness i suppose that i've kinda grown into. grins. and i like it.

its quite funny to think about it.. no matter how much you affect others, or the world. when you die, its the same for everyone. everything that you are, packaged into that seemingly small coffin, as opposed to large you lived your life, or how far you reached. your legacy might live on. and videos of you will get played all over the world, your music coming from all radio stations. but still, all that is left of you physically is in that one little box.

but the effect you leave on others, the soul of you and everything you've done lives on in the memories of each others. for aren't the memories of those who have gone, prove to us beyond anything else that that person did exist.

its not how much money you make, or how powerful you are that makes the difference. its how you touch people's hearts and lives. how you were part of others' lives, or how you made their lives better.

its the start of my self declared sabbatical summer. plans for this summer include family, friends, dancing, travels and japanese. these are all things i need to do, want to do and will fight to do. haha.

there are alot more ramblings that i need to get out. but that will take time. when i'm not so tired and sleepy. yawns. nights.

best film i've ever watched. had me sobbing throughout the flight back from london :p filmed slightly overexposed, it gives this dreamy quality to the movie. but the simplicity of everything, just made something inside of me ache.

its good to be home (:

its time to go home..

so many things that have been looping around my head. so many question marks. i actually think this is the make or break time for me. everything in the future kinda depends on what i choose next year really. and i think its time to stop making excuses for myself, and fight for what i really want.

or another note. )))): for andy murray